Isaiah 40:31 has long been my favorite verse. From the eagle imagery to the promise we can run and not be weary and walk and not faint, has always spoken and ministered to me. But these promises come with a condition. I can’t go out, register for a marathon, and then claim that I will not grow weary and take off running.
I might get 20 feet before I faceplanted. But these days, I imagine it would be more like 2 steps, if that. I can barely walk some days. And that’s an improvement from where I’ve been. I can look back on the days I have trouble moving around the house, remember when I needed help to walk to the restroom, and be grateful.
As comforting as the promises are, everyone seems to ignore the, “they that wait upon the LORD…” at the beginning of the verse. Waiting is never easy. I personally hate it. I’m one of the most impatient people you will ever meet. So why is waiting required?
God wants you to learn something. Over the past year, I’ve learned what it means to be comforted. I’ve learned just how much Nikki means to me and how much I love her. I’ve seen her stand by me when it felt like the world was crushing in and I literally lay in bed at night wondering if I would see the next day. I’ve learned that sometimes my body needs rest. That pushing through the pain and fatigue isn’t always the best thing. And that sometimes, being strong means saying “no.”
What a foreign concept. But looking back, I wouldn’t trade what I’ve learned to get rid of all of the pain and fatigue I’ve experienced. So, I wait. And if my healing comes next month, next year, or when I walk down the streets of gold, I know that I’m safely sheltered in my Father’s arms.